a blog where there only sad story

2006-12-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

nowaday no time to post

holding two job

n ah ma..

tue night she almost cannot make it

i don't wish to see her leave us..

but..

i don't even want to see her suffer

she depending on the medicine to survive

after the medicine is over

is want to have it

is just like

taking drug..

don't wish to say anymore..

grad ball photo part 3

2006-12-02T21:19:00.000+08:00

me and hadi
zenda and me
marcus and mesean me marcus
me and hua
hmmm..think no one visiting the blog

i closing this blog soon

today we have the parent semier at NP

i and zenda never go

alot of thing is trouble me

love family friends

i don't want to talk about love

family my ah ma is in hospital

see her like may go off anytime

friends i miss them

as for the other one

suddenly don't feel like getting close to them

feeling like crying now

grad ball photo part 2

2006-11-29T09:22:00.000+08:00

BOJ
BOJ again
kathy and me
JC and me
cai wei and me
hwee hoon and me
CK and me
apple and me

ben and me

i will slowly upload these pic in my blog
as there is too much photo

bbq

2006-11-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

we went to have BBQ

only KFC staff n manager are invited

we are pulling one and other into the send

we push eddie down

then he drag me

causing these scar..

it bled alot

but not as much as zenda

2006-11-26T23:47:00.000+08:00

lazy to upload the pic

blogger need so long to upload

grandma is in the hospital

went to visit her everyday

she having lung cancer

it had spread all over her body

nothing can cure le

anytime she may pass away..

cannot accept the fact

she had become thinner..

hope that if

she really pass away

she can pass away peacefully

grad ball photo

2006-11-24T17:09:00.000+08:00

ck sean apple

me n ck

Ck and cai wei
baoru n hwee hoon
BOJ(bunch of jokers)
we are one big family

Baoru n ck

still loading and editing pls wait

Grandma in hospital again

2006-11-23T09:55:00.000+08:00

this song is lake house soundtrack..

hmmm...

grandma is in hospital again

later go visit her le

have to rush to orchard

to buy shoe

cause today grad ball

still haven get shoe..

hope ah ma will recover soon

The end of 'O'-level

2006-11-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

finally 'o' level finish

haiz

woohoo..

ya today we met up

have dinner n catch movie

did improve on wat we talking

but....

still not quite good

still can do better ba..

i think is great when we are in the cimena

but when we go home

i quite moodly n tired..

n my ear...

could not hear properly

should not switch on too loud

really hope we go out again..

n i improve in expressing myself

Confused??

2006-11-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

is going to be sun

n i still no info about the date

should i give up the hope of waiting

or message him?

but is he wanted to celebrate with me

n i wished to also

if asked him

wat if he never want to celebrate?

haiz

wat should i do

confuse sad waiting

History paper

2006-11-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

today is sat

2 more days

and will be mon

i am lost very lost

though everytime will turn up to be good

but it never

it getting closer to mon

n i did don't noe we still have the date ma

i really wish have

so miss him

history paper was alot of harder than last year

cold war part b cannot be done

i do leauge of nation

everyone was hoping on war in pacific i also

but never come out

source base was the great leap forward

qing gui saw i write so long for source base

he say i siao liao..

i tell him i take crap..

wat a tired day

Brain cell going to be dead

2006-11-17T09:16:00.000+08:00

study history until all my brain is going to be dead

next mon is the last paper

happy but worried

cause don't noe y the date to me is like a dream that will come true

will we have it??

confuse

The stupid cough medicine

2006-11-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

wat happen to me

i feel so drownsinness

should not have drank the cough medicine

or i drank too much

now my head is spinning

when i wake up i like floating in the air n

my head is very heavy..

i now go to sleep

later still need to do something

Grandma in hospital

2006-11-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

haha..so happy..he called me..=p

but curious is how he noe my grandma in hospital..

hmmm..

he call me again

but never saw my phone

then never ask..ar..should see and ans..

visiting hour end at 8pm

ar...i should see my phone

about my grandma

she never contact TB

just a bad cough then cause her lung not well

but see her eat the medicne n she feel like vomit

n the needle on her hand

feel so poor thing for her

she is thinner than i saw her last time

but she will be in hospital for a long tim

wish she is ok soon

tml full shift morning at hougang point KFC

then at 5 went back to amk KFC

so sian

haha..

left hand got burnt

right hand got bruise

left eye got infection..

cough n stomache

all exam sickness..

2006-11-11T18:49:00.000+08:00

my grandma is out of ICU..

haha

hmmm..

yesterday he did not .... me

haha

hmm..

i gtg see grandma le..

ICU

2006-11-10T08:12:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to the hospital

at first she was at 'c' ward..

n my grandma has change to ICU

she yesterday 12am went into the hospital

at that point of time only one prson is allow to go into the room

n my aunty went in

she had to wrap her before going in

leave my dad outside

i still don't noe that she went in

cause we will sleeping

till yesterday moring i wake up

my dad told me

quite shocking

i still don't noe y my grandma went in

till we went to the hospital

my dad call us to wear mask to cover our mouth

they were suspecting that she might have TB

my aunty say there might be a higher chance

n if she having TB

the whole family have to go to have an injection to prevent it

her report will be out today..

she might have to stay there very long..

n have to suffer from the needle so many time per day

seeing the needle proking into her hand

n she feeling pain

i felt worried n sad

cause see she undergo this pain

even though i want to be the nurse..

but seeing that was my own family member

everyone should have 2 grandmother n 2 grandfather

when i was born i only have 1 gandmother n grandfather

which was my father side

when i was two my grandfather was dead

so i only have one grandmother..

she alway like us alot..

i hope that she alright =(

today have stomache n eye infection..

suspecting of having TB

2006-11-09T16:26:00.000+08:00

don't noe wat happen

just now my dad say my grandma at hospital..

just now he tell me my grandma had change to ICU

she might have TB

Physic paper

2006-11-09T08:53:00.000+08:00

haha..finally clear so many paper..

yesterday make stupid mistake

distance=speed x time

i don't noe y i go put divide..

wat am i going

haiz.. =(

keep having stomache..

so pain lor..

tml having math paper 2

then the next paper on the 17.

is like one week later..

haha

First 'O'level paper

2006-11-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

he call me..

i so happy

haha..lala..

today ss paper still can make it la

math..in front like primary math..

at the back abit hard

but think still can..

hope i can make it

Worried for the first paper

2006-11-05T09:31:00.000+08:00

just can't sleep yesterday

i guess yesterday i just too happy..

haha..

can't wait of the last day of the exam..

yesterday i walk back from j8

the same road that we walk

walk alone kind of feel that the road is long..

tml is ss n math paper

kind of worry

i study merger education n health le

now going to study separation n housing..

got time then study confilt among countries

hmmm..change my blog song

change the wishing tree

n the thing on the bottom which is blinking

at first there was written baby pooh and friend..

i have change it..haha

2006-11-03T10:15:00.000+08:00

so fast left 3 days to ss paper

kind of worry..

my tagboard became slient again..

so many show cannot watch

one chinese cops show in web put nc16

but at gv is m18

or i think is other show..i never remember the title

n the departed m18..

all about cops..diao..

even crank is also m18

yesterday they go watch the covenant..

i the first one who say want to go watch

end up i never go..

yesterday dream about him again..

haha..

2006-11-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

wat a bad day today

wake up so early go see team challenge

then go there so boring

then me sing n yan go woodland repair phone

the bad point is not i repair phone

cause my phone keep auto shut down

bad point is..

all the message that was send by him

n my calender store all the thing

the worst

today want to change ck present

then ar..never mind

haiz

i miss that sweet dream

it was like so sweet

i went to hougang point

then i met him

then i go shop with him

i accompany him to shop

then he hold my hand

i was so happy that i want to call sing

n the back of the dream

how should i say

is conutine but no point i take bus from hougang point back home

n..haha..don't tell u all

when i wake up..

i really got the feeling that the dream is true

n happen yesterday..

the dream very very the real..

but it only happen on last wed

how i wish it happen everyday

dream also happy..

if real..haha

2006-11-01T09:00:00.000+08:00

nervous nervous nervous...

today is already wed

next mon tue wed and fri got paper

mon-> ss and math paper 1

tue-> chem

wed-> eng paper 1 n 2 and physic

fri-> math paper 2

still got paper on the next next week...

Yesterday had a wonderful dream

but will not come true

cause people say once u remember the dream

it will never come true

but how i wish..

it will come true

the dream seem to be like the really one

yesterday went to j8

want to go action city buy the baby torto

which cause $2.95

the tortoise that put hp..

with blue colour shell

but alot of my friends had put on their phone..

don't feel like buying le

but still got one is got leaf on the tortoise head

but i never see the price

if i not wrong should have hp strip on it

2006-10-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

nowaday never come update

cause went to funeral

is my dad cousin mother

i don't noe call her one

so sian there

none of them i knew

cause did not grow up with them..

last time the older generation problem

last sat night going to sun

never study for chinese

cause too tired

then use com play game

but one message come

don't noe y got the motivation to study

haha

so happy he message me..

how i wish he everyday message me

ss and math paper on 6th of nov

watch DOA le..not bad..

then went to take 156 from bishan back home

then the bus broke down the sean house

no choice

i n jc walk

go take 73 or 315 back home..

so tired

slept at 2 wake up at 7

scared overslept

cuase want to pass zy ss paper

in the end he overselpt

i left the paper with zoe..

go home

cannot sleep..then abit tired..

2006-10-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

2 days to the exam

i am still thinking about thing i should not..

wat am i doing

jay chou is coming out a movie

not bad..

he the king..i think so..

i wish i could..nvm

all i want for christmas is you =)

a smile from you can brighten my day..

The hardest thing to do..
is being next to someone..
you noe you can't have..

I'will be here..
why?..
I'will be waiting here...
for wat?..
I'will be waiting for you so..
if u come here
you'll find me
i promise

*does these sentence let people...
haha..
not going to say..
so miss....ya

2006-10-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

this is a very nice show..

nowaday never online

the prac test

noe how to do

but no confidence..haha

2006-10-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

nowaday the weather..

make me sick

stomache alway

hmm..

everyone asleep

tml is the prac test

so worried

today we no need attendent for the lesson

n pratice paper

someone spoil my whole entire

ai ya

hack care

i think alot this week

i may seen happy

smiling

but lot of thing is boring me

alot alot

don't noe when to start

2006-10-15T01:28:00.000+08:00

fri had a diarrhoea..

keep going to the toilet

then don't noe y yesterday got a big head ache

now still pain

is already 1.20+ am

so tired

watching princess hours

going to sleep le

2006-10-12T23:30:00.000+08:00

ar..so sian..
today sch end at 5pm
start at 9am
very tired
left 19 days..so scared
stomache today
cannot really walk

study until crazy liao

so sian

2006-10-11T12:53:00.000+08:00

today never go sch..

headache n my mom wake me up late

so boring at home..

my bro snatch the com away from me..

2006-10-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

this is wat happen to my left hand..last time think too much scared got hand food mouth..but forget only children get it..then today see nice nice then go pull up the skin..now become like this..could not find plaster..lucky marcus got two and he gave me all..then just now went to eat..forget plaster is not waterproof..then cause alot of pain..haiz..

just now marcus give me plaster..then got nothing to do..then draw this..like abit ugly hor..not very good at art lor..haha..don't noe y just now keep coughing think need to see doctor soon..haha =P

2006-10-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

me now working in subway

n i still got work kfc but not everyday
this week somehow is a very sad week..

i wish u are right here now..

so so so..

miss

ya..

leg tired

so late le..

1 plus le

think i go sleep le T-T

2006-10-07T11:50:00.000+08:00

this is wat my bro did for ruyi..

nice ba..

haha..

later going to work le..

haiz

so sian..

haha..

take care..

weather not good

2006-10-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

hey

everyone take care

esp u..syafiq..=)

the haze is getting thicker..

drink more water =P

2006-10-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

today went to watch world trade center..not bad quite touching la..haha..but in fornt abit boring to me..

today is lantern festival..how i wish that someone could use candle to form a heart..that will be much more happy if buy anything..but this could only be dream..because HDB falt cannot play with candle..my bro n i both same..he use candle made ruyi name..next time i upload pic..i wish my love one can do for me..anytime also can

want to watch this show..but no one accompany me watch..

this show not bad very funny..i laugh till stomache..

this is a very nice show it at channel U on oct 9 at 7 pm..heard from alot of friends it is very nice..want to watch by o-level is starting..by this show is a very nice show..must watch..rated 9 out of 10..how

ya guy will like it

2006-10-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

get back test paper le

our class did well in some paper

some paper did not do well

n people cry because of the test

very worried

getting a good result

how i wish i can rest now

i wish could go out with him =P

2006-10-04T20:22:00.000+08:00

today have chem n eng

our class did not do well for eng

then met ling sing ling yan jasmine to study

then met joshua xiao

so miss syafiq

want to see him =P

2006-10-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

wat a big scar

that time accompany my mom..

then got burn by joss stick

now my hand become like that

haha

only itchy abit

tml n thur going to get back paper

very nervous

don't noe wat to go

2006-10-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

Alot of time i really want to give up

but i told myself

i have been waiting tis day for 7 years

7 years

put in all the effort

i not giving up..

unless thought word come out from your mouth

or i will not

i noe i am silly..

but all i want is to be with u

n wish u to be happy

hmmm..

talking about friend

trust is the most importance thing

n other people privary

will not talk more about it..

leading to freedom

i left 52 days

my heart is fill with confuse, happy, waiting, sad, missing someone, nervous feeling..

2006-10-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday accompany my mom

go temple

got burn by joss stick

so many people

ya ya

i alway go there ask for the same thing..

wish i could see him

chat with him..

2006-10-01T09:45:00.000+08:00

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2006-09-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

Everybody in this world change..

some are for the better

some are for the worst

today i went to sch..

something happen

whic lead almost late for sch

but i feel guilty

for the ans which i gave

that mean i don't even noe the ans

or maybe never even put this ans in my mind

n ans it..

nvm

don't even noe wat i talking..

long time never touch n talk much about class thing

with people

even though class may seen peaceful

that only the surface

how i wish i still in primary

everyone is so innocent

don't noe wat wrong n wat right

won't that be good

so peaceful n quiet..

long time never chat with him in msn

maybe he busy

n i am also..

i think..

so miss him =(

2006-09-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

I AM BROKE
TOTALLY BROKE

pay this pay that going to broke liao

think to work ba

so miss you =P

2006-09-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

I did a test

no 1 is my fav no which is 4..

that true..

no2 is no of people that like me i put 8..

got so much ma??

no3 is the person i love..n i put syafiq..

so accurate..=P

no4 is my friend or family i care the most..

i put zenda name

no5 is the person noe me very well

i put ling yan

no6 is my lucky star

i put ling sing

no7 is the person of opposite sex friend

i put sean

no8 is the song which match with the person in no 3

i put I wanna grow old with you

no9 is the song which match with the person in no 7

i put graudtion

no 10 is the song that talk about my mind thinking

i put my love

no11 is the song that tell my life is

i was born to make you happy

n i make a wish..

don't tell ya..

this test 95% accurate..

prem over

o-level is coming

so scared..

haiz

wanna let myself relax

for this few day or maybe this week

mabe go watch movie..

any show also can

let myself relax..

so tired

dont be afraid to tell him that u love him

2006-09-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

As I sat there in English class,

I stared at the girl next to me.

She was my so-called "best friend".

I stared at her long, silky hair.

I wished she were mine, but she didn't notice me like that.

And I knew it.

After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before,

and I handed them to her.

She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I wanted to tell her.

I wanted her to know that I don't want to be just friends.

I love her, but I'm just too shy.

And I don't know why.

11th Grade

The phone rang.

It was her on the other end.

She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.

She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did.

As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.

After 2 hours, a Drew Barrymore movie,and three bags of chips, she decided to go tosleep.

She looked at me, said "thanks," and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her.

I want her to knowthat I don't want to be just friends.

I love her,but I'm just too shy.

And I don't know why.

12th Grade

The day before prom she walked to my locker.

"My date is sick," she said.

He's not going to go.

Well, I didn't have a date and in 7th grade we made a promise that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as "best friends," so we did.

Prom night after everything was over I was standing at her front door step.

I stared at her.

She smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes.

I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I knowit.

Then she said, "I had the best time,thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her.

I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.

I love her, but I'm just too shy.

And I don't know why...

Graduation Day

A day passed. A week passed. A month passed.

Before I could blink, it was graduation day.

I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.

I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.

Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and she cried as I hugged her.

Then, she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "You're mybest friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her.

I want her to know that I don'twant to be just friends.

I love her, but I'm just too shy.

And I don't know why…

A Few Years Later

Now, I sit in the pews of the church.

She is getting married, now.

I watched her say, "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man.

I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it.

But before she drove away, she came to me and said, "You came!" She said, "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek.

I want to tell her.

I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends.

I love her, but I'm just too shy.

And I don't know why...

Funeral

yrs passed, and I looked down at the coffin of the girl who used to be my best friend."

At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.

This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he were mine.

But he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it.

I want to tell him..

I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.

I love him, but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why

I wish he would tell me he loved me..

i wish I did to..

i thought to myself, and I cried.

SOMEONE WILL TELL YOU THEY LOVE YOU AND WOULD DO ANY THING FOR YOU...

TELL YOUR LOVE ONE YOU LOVE HIM

2006-09-21T14:02:00.000+08:00

Today test end at 9

then went to me breakfast with classmate

then me zen n jc acc sean

go cut hair see present for his dad..n someone =P

so long never talk to him le..haha

tml last paper for prem

soon o coming

so scare..

2006-09-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

hmmm..

today have physic paper..

some of them never finish the paper

tml having math paper 2

wonder who is the :)

issit him?

so so so miss him =P

i siao liao

haha

good luck for the coming exam

2006-09-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

Haha..

finally the song work

so happy

but is only when i click one the post block

the song work..

try to improve..

this song is westlife

i wanna grow old with you

2006-09-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

I want to cry le

put so much effort

put i wanna grow old with you on my blog n friendster

don't noe y cannot play

arrrrrrr...

so so so sad

haha

today paper was math paper one

n history paper

is easy

but both i no confindence

haiz

so so miss him =P

wish to see him

blehx

2006-09-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..

so boring..

he went on a trip..

so miss him..

he will be back on sun..

i miss you..

ya..we met yesterday

wish to see him soon..

even though we far now..

looking at the sky..

we both are looking at the same sky..

this sentence seem to be old fashion..

hmmm..

so happy..

still no feeling well

now only cough..

today have chinese paper..

hmmm..

should be ok..

tml having chemistry paper

hope it easy..

2006-09-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

today have eng paper 2

hmmm..

don't noe wat the passage talking about wat

just have a werid feeling

tml is the..

crap..

don't noe how to say..

supirse

miracle

will it happen..

don't think so

haiz..

head pain

fever

flu

cough..

omg..so ill

don't feel like eating medicine

alway vomit out

lucky the pill are small one..

is my mom one..

tml chinese paer 2..

2006-09-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

omg..

wat a day

today have social studies

n chinese paper 1

suddenly nose bleed

to prevent the blood from flowing..

i try my best to..

don't say

it disguesting

no one noe i nose bleeding

can't think about it

follow got headache n fever

that what i say

once i sick

i totally sick

too heaty le

haiz

tml english paper 2..

got to rest

shall end here

2006-09-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

come here to update

busy study..

don't have time online..

that day went sentosa

too tired

update le..then go sleep..

prem start today..

eng paper 1..

hmm..

something bad happen

haiz

so ill now..

everytime exam start

i get ill

pre prem..

i got cough..

keep coughing disturb jc..haha

now

got sore thorat

flu..

today abit of headache

hmm..

once i sick

all the illness come

soon will have fever..

don't like eat medicine..

eat big one..

cannot swallow..

then vomit..

this happen to my mom also..

lucky this is small one..

or else i rater sick also don't eat

haiz

prem end next week..

how i wish

2006-09-07T22:56:00.000+08:00

today went to sentosa

very tired

n my last toe i thindon't noe wat happen

very very pain

now cannot even walk properly

thinking issit broken??

maybe is zenda ling sing ling yan jasmine

want to pull me into the sea

that y maybe i am injury

today got 11 people..

me nallur ling sing ling yan jasmine zenda

eddie ammar wei ying glen xiyu n his friend

but missing out him

half of me fly away

wish he could join

so fast sch reopen

n none of the subject could get into my mind

i guess

i going to be dead soon

mon test..

don't noe wat to do..

feel so sad

finally can see sunburn

cause nowaday ling sing n jasmine say

i nowaday look very pale

already have enough sleep

also don't noe y

finally i see my face red..

alot of thing don't noe wat to do

n don't wish to continue

but...

.......

...don't noe

take a step at a time ba!!!

2006-08-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

study study study

my head is going to be big

finally d n t handed it

everyone since to rush folio for the past few day

i have rush till 12..

did not have good rest..

n continue in class during lesson

n free time

but finally it over..

waiting for it to be mark..

so tired nowaday

went home

lied on the bed

feel like sleeping

but too tired till cannot sleep

somemore today caught in the rain twice

going to sch

thank to my bro

i have to take cab

n help him pay

must be wondering take cab

how will i caught in the rain

the sch say must wear pe for the ace work up

then i ran opposite to change

that y i caught in the rain..

then have to ran back to sch

worst till

the sch suddenly say due to the rain

we can change to home clothes

...

after sch

still raining

then we to eat

caught in the rain

n i have to wear heel to ran with my friend

tired

but did enjoy myself..

i feel like doing something

that is..

go to the beach

walk..

see..

relax..

so stress up

or maybe watch some movie..

or go out

o-level just leave 60 days

prem only left 10 days..

how am i going to survive

with my subject

history

social studies

english..

haiz..

better go to sleep

2006-08-28T14:43:00.000+08:00

just wonder wat u doing nowaday

how u feel

how u did for your test..

cause i don't want to e-mail u

to disturb u...

2006-08-28T00:58:00.000+08:00

nowday watch devil beside you

then very late the sleep

yesterday watch 9 disc

today 2 disc

wat made me want to watch one disc n continue

is it very touching..

qi yue and ah meng

yang ping and ki xiang

qi zi and yuan yi

today somehow is nicer than yesterday

even thought i only watch 3 disc

qi zi is the one who said to yuan yi

that she like him..

n they two got togther

yuan yi start to find other guy who she don't like

because she think that she is the one who alway put in effort

n she is too tired of giving in

one of her friends say to her

that usually a girl go tell the guy that she like him

when they get together

the guy usually don't treasure them

issit the truth?

i not sure

yun yi start to noe how importance is qi zi to him

se willing to give up everything for her

n promise that forever he will be making the first move

he start to hold her hand..

i find this

is just wat happen to me

but wat can i do..

am i going to make the first move?

i just too shy to make any move

only in msn

i dare to say anything

when i don't need to face him..

confuse..happy...sad..or...

don't...noe...

2006-08-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

not sure

did i screw up my o-level oral

don't think so

n hope not

try n best to nervous..

i am daring in msn or in sms

but

i alway nervous when i...

1.see examier

2.do presentation

3.go out with the person i like

i will get shy

not really dare to talk to the person

everything went smooth for the time being

but zenda n ammar

they have..

hmm..

i am an outsider

don't really want to talk much..

so tired

busy do d n t

tml still have to work..

haha..

gtg..bb..take care u guys..

2006-08-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

so happy study with him on mon

at my house downstair

maybe just today

maybe just together 1 week

abit like friend like that

but abit not like friend

haha..

don't noe how to say

but i am still so shy

see him i blush..

haiz

happy that he want to noe more

i am going to noe him more also..

haha

tml have o-level oral

abit scare

hope everything will turn into a good way

n him..

will study hard..

2006-08-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

so sian

don't noe what to do now

very very confuse

haiz

yesterday got burn

now my hand got two scar

but..

forget it

miss him

but wat can i do

just misses the time

we watch movie n walking back home

best day i ever ever had

nowaday ph girl keeping calling my name

wat have i done wrong??

ph = pizza hut

keep asking who is yvonne

so sick

am i his stead..

just wonder this question again n again

2006-08-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

hmm..

can't believe nowaday i am studying

ya because of him

kind of miss him

in msn..

blehx

nowaday we two are busy

he had test coming up

so do i

so sian

when can i go out with him again..

wondering...

today tml n tml tml

working nite

after next week

me not working le

manage to do something well

he is now not my best friend

neither does him

somehow wat i want

i almost spoil my plan

see him happy with other friends

i also happy

even though i left with zenda

hmmm..it ok..

or the three of us will suffer..

sep hoilday going to study

n hope hope could go out with him =p

fri lesson is also so short

that y i like fri

hmm...

starting work at 6..

gonna bath

next time then update..

*first time open up my heart to tell someone

i don't wish to be the one who end this...

2006-08-16T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmm..

today is such a boring day

going to have o level oral le..

abit nervous leh..

haiz..

prem prac coming

on mon

so sian..

miss him alot..

don't noe y

maybe

he is the first guy i like

first guy i ask for stead

first guy who give me a feeling ba

yaya..

all is going tell me that i sick of him

hmm..

want to noe wat he doing

how his day

prepared for his exam

did not blame that he never online

poly test is not as easy as we think

study more importance

esp for guy

wish that we could talk on phone..

but sure later nothing to talk..

haiz

but we are stead..

n i understand

we two are busy

first year in poly is very busy for him

n as for me

o-level is coming

if he had a blog

how good

can at least noe wat happen to him everyday

me decided to post him an e-mail

keep having a dream

like i ask him for stead

in my dream

when it already happen

hmmm..

i must be nut..

chem for today..

test for anions n cations

mus t remember

that alot

n must remember by mon..

hmm..

alot ar...

n my d n t

90% finish...

hmmm..

wish could go out with him

even go down hdb flat study also happy

hmmm..

i think

i should not think this

get into nursing

go same sch

n we can meet each other..

hmmm..

i go send him e-mail le

should end here

good luck for o-level =P

2006-08-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

hmmm..

nowaday quite busy with d n t

n i decided to retake chinese 'o'-level

almost everyone retake

hmmm...must do well..

1408

haha

i just don't have the stead feeling..

maybe

i was just yesterday

everything to me now seem to be like a dream

like..

did i ask him..

in my dream or...

are we already stead or

was it just my dream..

think i got too serious =X

cause he the first guy i ask

n the only guy i like alot...

hmmm..

i keep looking at the msn chat history

i guess i ask him..

n we did really stead ba..

like a surprise like that

could i put my friendster in a relationship

or not..should i?

i just don't how to say

got a feeling like

i am still in the sweet dream

asking him for stead

where as it already happen..

think i must be abit sick =X

waiting for him in msn to chat..

blehx

today lesson end at 5

then weht home

cause my right foot last time got injury

went to see doctor

cost me $22 for one treatment

n never go check up..

then today rain abit pain

but the left knee is alright

maybe thank to my mom

brought me a knee protection..

tml lesson end the 2pm

got EFL till 2pm

then have the summary course

thank to that teacher

i was almost late to watch movie with him last time

but luckly take cab go home

then to school

cannot believe that i did my history so fast

last time people hand in i still doing

mr yong say this one i write can pass..

then i have 45mins break

where other is still writing

today i send pamela zhang hong photo

n help ammar n zenda in their 1st month

so fast

this thur is their first month..

haiz..

so sian

so miss him..

think i must be sick...

haiz

2006-08-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

Everything seem to be like s dream

i so happy yesterday

but

a bit wierd wierd

like can't believe we stead la

or was i just dreaming

not sure..

haiz..

so sian

everyday do d n t

hope i can retake the chinese test

so sian..

wat should i do?

2006-08-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

hmmn..

so funny today

jamine see din like saw her huband lika that

she is too crazy for din..haha

i accompany her with ling sing

waited for din for at least one gour

my leg already very pain n tired

cause today work until very tired

btw

din is a rider from pizza hut

like is we wear the kfc uniform waited for so long..

haha..

then i n ling sing

go ask din

if he like jasmine

he say yes

then we call him ask for stead

hmmm..

cause both like each other

manager say now have new style

chinese girl like malay

me like someone

zenda like ammar

jasmine like din

zenda n ammar have stead

n din ask jasmine if she want to be his girl

where as for me...

don't noe

i don't noe he like me ma

ling sing call me ask him again

i tell her i dare not

is like i ask n tell him liao

ask again..like

will scared him like that

n i don't noe he like me ma

hard to say out

see jamine like that

was how i feel when i first tell him

hard to chat with him

only through msn

maybe he don't like me

n i don't want give him pressure

if he don't like me i don't want to pressure him to like me

i rather wait till the day he say he like me..

then we get together

then we will be happy

cause i noe the feeling when a person like u

n u don't like

n both get together

each other will be unhappy

cause i happen to me three time

so i noe how it feel..

haiz..

just

wait till that day then day

i already happy to be with friend with him

2006-08-11T17:09:00.000+08:00

hmmm..

today is so piss up..

not because of the o result

is the guy

y he don't understand by

impossible to get together..

reject le still don't understand

y can't him like w

won't ask me again

is so irrating..

hmmm..

my o-level chinese get a c5

quite not happy

but i did improve alot

hmmm..

zenda must be sad

she aim for an b3 or b4

but she get c6

hmm..

alot of good one get b3

i get b3 i happy le..

haiz

i sad over something

but wat the use

but just can't believe

i could survive with me alone

if it last time me

i think i could not..

i tell myself there no use

to force myself go to somewhere

people never intend to call me go

where other call me go

i think they will not enjoy it ba

i think purposly make a quarrel with him

it a correct way

making him stuck between

me n last time one of best freind

he will suffer alot

we three was once best friend

n that over

let three of us suffer

n since one of friend cannpt get back together

y don't i just change to someone

they don't like

quarrel with him

let them get together as friend..

won't that only one person get hurt

i no need anyone pity

in fact lasing everything

i don't mind

i just don't wish to lose someone

even though as a friend

2006-08-09T15:54:00.000+08:00

feel like closing this blog

is like

i am writing the 16 post..

who had view it..

no one..

or maybe is a good thing

writing to myself..

treating my blog as a friends.

yesterday never go watch fire work

stomache pain

doing d n t..

n think alot..

when i walk the tv

i saw one show

the show somehow call me "to wake up"

i ask myself

should i wait..

or should i....?

around midnight

nallur talk to me in msn about jeff

same story..

i was thinking

issit easy for me

to give up..

n forget about it

for so many years

i noe the ans that is in my heart

which is

no..

nothing can really replace..

the pain n tear in my heart

u all will never noe

n noe how it feel

he too prefect

in my heart

i think in the first place

i think i should tell 'w'

that we are impossible

he seem to have no impact

he still study

he still live very happy

n ended up wat happen

is i am the one to clear up this mess

due to him i lost a friend

beacuse of the quarrel

or maybe is a good thing

in that case he will not be running two side

this problem like wat my other friend say

no one is at fault

is just

the way we both thing are difference

i scared that i will hurt him

but he think that he will handle by himself

but i did regret of doing this late

cause i tell myself

wat ever i do

i will care for other

before taking any action

i rather i be the one who get hurt

don't talk about him le..

if we never quarrel

he the only one who can help me now

cause we once have the same situation

but now

i rather face it nyself

no one can help me

y god cannot give or let us do the way we want

it to be..

thinking..in the first place

was it my fault

to start all these thing

making myself unhappy

nallur was sad over jeff

i think i see she like him alot

sometime it hard to say

maybe today u like him he don't like u

when he already like u..

u already give up on him

is really hard to find someone u love

n he love u the smae as u love him

it will be either

u love him more that him

or he love u more that u love him

wat can we do

is fate

i never regret of finding u back

even thought we get contact was just

only less that a month

but i am very happy

to chat with u n watch the movie

but sometime

i got a feeling to give up

n somethime i had feeling call me not to give up

but to think

if i really want give up..

i should do it 4 years ago..

after our primary sch

but i did not

not sure

but all want to say

i wish that we can still be friend

if we are really impossible

two people having relationship

wat is the most importance

i think is trust n care

to many woman up there

they may think is the 5 c

n he has to be handsome

but i think that the trust between two is impoatance

so wat u find a guy u don't like but he rich

u will not care for him neither do him

so wat u manage to find the most handsome guy in the world

alot of thing u will be afraid of

having an affair outside

go for his face n not his charater..

when he is old won't he turn into an ugly old guy?

y don't they just go by wat they want

rather than sitting at home to be those rich wives

y don't work n support the family

n help your husband..

won't that have a closer bond?

omg..why am i say all these? 0_^

2006-08-08T13:16:00.001+08:00

maybe alone is better with so many friends..

alot of thing to say

but don't feel like typing..

somehow my wish success..

which is

have no friend

cause i don't wish anyone to quarrel or

don't noe who to go

when problem between n her..

i noe i am selfish..

but i no choice..

even zenda also don't noe this..

stomach very pain..

that y don't intend to go to see firework

today have national day celebration..

kind of boring

don't noe wat to do now..

maybe later go sleep ba

yesterday eddie birthday then we help him celebrate

untill around 10+

when reach home is around 11

then went to bed at 12+..

but there is one wish n the only wish

i wish that it will come true..

n that is...

i don't tell u =p
i think i should end here

2006-08-08T13:16:00.000+08:00

maybe alone is better with so many friends..

alot of thing to say

but don't feel like typing..

stomach very pain..

that y don't intend to go to see firework

today have national day celebration..

kind of boring

don't noe wat to do now..

maybe later go sleep ba

2006-08-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

Everything seem to be like a dream

n i just cannot wake up from there

ya..today i keep laughing to myself

zenda must think that i am nut..

from the time how i wish the time could stop

it seem to happen very long time ago

next week is a boring week

so many hoilday

never go out

don't noe how to spend the days

got busy by d n t nowaday

everything have to hand in

hmmm...so late le

i think i better go sleep

even though lesson end at 12.30

i still have prastice paper

later go n do d n t..

2006-08-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

omg..

y i so shy

when i reach there my heart like jumping out

so nervous

we watch the lake house

he bought the ticket before we

he still look the same old him

even his charater..

haha

but slience moment are alot

hmm..

see him i already blush le

how to talk

okok..

it take time

but with him already very happy

haha

don't noe how to say

ammar message me ask me

today issit a good day to hold zenda hand

hmm...i tell him

since u two together le

give it a try lor

haha

nowaday weather very cold

then my leg siao siao one..

pain then don't pain then pain again

hmmm

when can we meet again =p

blehx blehx blehx

2006-08-01T21:16:00.000+08:00

did i write the wrong thing..

hmmm

diao..

my face is blushing..

hmmm

omg

teacher said tml we have summary workshop

hope that i the one at 2 to 3

then go home change clothes

meet him

hmmm..

tml so nervous

haiz

so sian

blehx...

no one to chat..

2006-07-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

It may be stupid

but u will not noe how i can

because of a 7 years love to him

can give up my everything

wed is the meeting day

so nervous

first time meet

but vey scared

the time the place to watch movie have been plan

but meet where..

i cannot contact him now

how

i don't noe wat to do

everyday alomst wait till 12 am then sleep

today my left leg pain the whole day

n expect raining

my leg got problem

n my mom is very worried about it..

hmmm..

don't write le

wait for him n see how ba..

2006-07-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm..

actually got alot of thing to write

hmm...

but don't wish to write

so long don't noe how to say

but who ever want to noe

then come ask me

i think say out is better than write out

4 problem

3 solve

finish 2 rejects

one is w one is a

then i manage to tell s i like him

thew last problem is a friendship problem

the prblem is wat i say on the in the green words..

haha

2006-07-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

i don't care wat u want

i don't care we could get back

to friend

now the only thing that is importance is

him

zenda n friends

o-level

be nurse

in np..

that all..

i am happy..

cause i did something

i will never regret

even if it never happen

the most i will be sad

but at least i ask le

2006-07-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

i am sorry

sorry sorry sorry

that all

2006-07-21T14:40:00.000+08:00

finally found ermm..

then have a chat..

but don't noe wat to talk..

is like first time talk so much..

primary sch also haven talk so much..

talking to..

make me feel so relax

so happy

now at zenda house writing blog

hmm

don't write le..

i go chat liao

wat ever happen i don't care liao..

2006-07-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

people alway say that

after the rain u will see sunlight

issit true

i don't think so

all i can see

is darker cloud coming

more problem coming

but wat can i do

i was born to have problem

wat ever

to me

one more probelm equal to nothing

have an quarrel with dad

he don't wat ever i saw

n i think he noe he hurt me

n him pass me the tissue

i also don't noe..

he want to quarrel then quarrel

i also have nothing to say

i no need anyone pity

n no care wat anyone say

i noe i am stubborn

but i don't wish to hurt anyone

i rather i be the one to be hurt

so leave me alone

if u don't noe wat i thinking

2006-07-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

fuck la

i don't noe how to say leh

i don't care liao

to me one more trouble= to nothing

since i got alot of trouble

just don't understand

he had problem

he need not tell me

but i got prblem i need to tell him

is like wat the..

ya ya

alway is my fault

then forget it is my fault

anyway

i am use to it..

i don't need anyone to pity me

zenda feel so guilty

cause she watch with the guy

then i never go watch

n ended up in quarrel

i told her it ok..

if can see a good guy take care of her

i also happy

happy that zenda found a good guy..

i finally found..

n we talk in friendster..

i am sick so badly

i faster die la

since no one care..

i go buy my guan cai ba

got use to be alone

2006-07-14T17:47:00.000+08:00

haiz

today the test okok

but seriously i not taking it serious

and i think for me to get serious

so that i can go

to the course i want

haiz

nothing happen today..

but just can't smile

cause have a bad cough

but don't want see doctor..

so sian

i should end here le..

cause meeting my mother..

hmmm...

to everyone

take our health..

blehx =P..

following mr lim

every post i end with a few statement

it taken from...

my brain...

today the statement very long

seeing everyone happy made me happy

even though u may hate or dislike me

even though i still carried the harted with me

i will not do anything wat mine is alway mine...

2006-07-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

SO sian..

how i wish o-level finish

then go poly...

haha..then go be nurse

...

but..

don't noe la so sian

hmmm...

i help people i so happy

i help le zenda

percentage get together is 80%

but wait for o-level to end..

so sad

i cannot even solve my problem

n yet i go help

wat a fool i am..

left 2 paper for paper..

soso sian...

tue don't noe want to go ma

not only i don't want see her

n..don't want see him

haiz

don't noe wat to do

if don't go

i will..

haiz..

see first la..

is like i see wat his a friend through today lor..

haiz..

got alor of thing want to talk to

but i guess no ba

Everyday is a beautiful n a brand new day..

hope that someone can brighten up ur day..

2006-07-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

A brand new blog

ya still using her template..

next time i think

my only friend

my blog...

u will ask me y ba

my frind is like leaving me..

n my blog is the thing i could write my thing

that y is call this blog

where there is only sad story

n only sad story

at least can see how many sad i am sad

Me alone walking in amk

don't noe wat to do

don't feel like going home..

zen went for test

i feel that suddenly

i all by myself

ME Me me..alone

No happy story today got one..

finally

i help someone to matchmake

zenda n ammar..

it all happen today

i message him say acc zenda go watch moive

(cause they last time got rumors)

the show is just my luck

theni realise the guy got feeling

hope both of them can get together..

Back to sad story

i cannot be selfish

wat if they two get together..

i will be alone

my sis really got bf..

i cannot break them up

cause is match them together..

sean i think i n him like got a big gap

he don't like don't want get close to me like that

he like hating me

i don't noe..

i never go back with them for almost two week

n he ask me go watch movie

with someone quarrel with me

then miss j

to be frank

i still don't noe y we quarrel

but all i noe

we will never be friend again..

i think i will be alone..

i don't wanna fight anymore..